Who are you?

I ask myself that every once in a while. Do we know who we are and are we the person we've always wanted to be?

Some people strive to do great things...

Some people observe great things...

I wonder which of the two I want to be.

More often than not, I grow tired of the life that I have. Just like now. If only it was possible to just put everything down and walk away, never looking back; with no regret, with no responsibilities and no worries; just do what the heart desires. I often forget those words...

"The happiest person is one who follows their heart."

Life is always about choices; but it feels like it's all about making other people happy and what other people want me to be/do.

Perhaps it's time again to just pack my bags and go somewhere new?

Like the changing of seasons, time for a new setting, new beginning and a new way of life, on my own; which was exactly why I wanted to go on an exchange program.

But seeing that my plan to go to the UK for a semester next year has come tumbling down, maybe, all I need is just a getaway to freshen up!

I'm so looking forward to my London trip! Two weeks to go. I just gotta HANG IN THERE for the time being!

So lucky, my ass!

Random: Hey Mich, when's your exams?

Me: Erm, I've got no exams.

Random: How come one?

Me: Mine all 100% assignments based.

Random: Wah, sibeh lucky lor. I hate you man.

Me: Not very lor, if you have 5 due on the same day.

Random: At least you no need study for exams what!

Me: But I also need to read like mad for research.

Random: But still. Walao, so lucky leh you.

Me: (-__________-)"""

Unless this is how you define "lucky", then yes I am very lucky.

I hate it when people think that Arts student have very relaxed schedule. Just because we don't have exams, does not necessarily mean that we're very "free" and "laid back". We are just as stressed as you are okay! With plentiful of readings, and researches that needs to be done to back up our arguments and whatnots, you have NO IDEA how arduous that is.

The next time someone says I'm lucky, I'm not going to bother justifying how tensed our course is at times. I'll just go, "Well, FUCK YOU!"

Yes, this is a Media and Communication (Arts) student speaking.

Time, is all I need. Just one more to go.

After 8 hours of researching for materials and reading all the shit that I can about quantitative and qualitative approaches since after lunch, I suddenly felt so lost. You know when you spend so much time just reading and reading, at some point, your mind just goes BLANK?!!

I completely forgot about the main arguments that I constructed in my essay plan so I read the question again and re-looked at my essay plan. I blinked at the question retarded-ly and I think I read it for another 10 times again just to make sure that I wasn't hallucinating. You know why?

Because I realised that I've eff-ing misunderstood what the question actually requires. And that's to say, the materials that I spent days reading are now not very relevant anymore.

ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!! @#$%^&*

For a moment, I felt tears welling up in my eyes; I panicked, I broke down, and I just lost that streak of confidence that was in me. My mind just blacked out and it felt almost as light as cotton.

I don't think I've ever in my life been this stress before, seriously. Three days to the due date and I haven't even started writing anything yet. I got a H2A (Distinction) for my first assignment, and I just really wanna keep up with that. This second research essay weighs like 60% of the final results; I CANNOT AFFORD TO SCREW THIS UP!!!

*runs around in a million directions like a siow cha boh who managed to escape Tanjung Rambutan, screaming and pulling hair*

I should just go have a rest and turn on my FULL BLAST TURBO POWER tomorrow. Or more like later in the day. It's 5.40am already. Bed time.

My whole biological clock is messed up; and I look so fugly and exhausted with all those pimples proliferating on my face like mushrooms after the rain. AH FUCK THIS SHIT!!!

What doesn't kill me, makes me stronger!!!

I can see the rainbow.

We spend too much time looking for the right person to love, or finding fault with those we already love, when instead we should be perfecting the love we give.

When you truly care for someone, you don't look for faults, you don't look for answers, you don't look for mistakes. Instead, you fight the mistakes, you accept the faults, and you overlook the excuses.

Opening up your eyes is the first step to making dramatic changes in your life. I see things much clearer now. After every storm, there's always a rainbow. I'm glad that I have finally come to the realise. :)

P/S: Oh, you know why you're getting more love related quotes? Simply because Yeong Ren hates it. ;) HAHAHAHA! *in your face*

Standing by you.

Sorry sorry, I know you peeps are waiting for Sydney Day 2, but I'm currently really busy dating, or more like two-timing Mr. Assignments and Mr. Stress but I promise it'll be up as soon as I ditch those two idiotic partners of mine. For the time being, I'd just love to share some love quotes that I recently got REALLY addicted to. ;)

People are always going to be walking in and out of your life, that's why no one should ever have high expectations of anybody else.

You may know a lot of people and a lot of people may know you... but amongst them there are only gonna be a heartful of people that you can totally trust and amongst those that you can trust, is that one person that you can see an eternity with.

Sound advice; never go searching for love, you'll find that it will be found when someone up there thinks it's the right time for you. But remember to NEVER give up hope, because whatever it is that happens...

"Love is standing by, and you'll never stand alone."